The pressure of the Center that I didn’t know until now.
Suddenly felt panic in the stage wing at the Record Awards. She was almost crying from the pressure.
The greatest highlight of last year’s general election is, of course, when Mayuyu came in 2nd place. Just before that, after Shinoda Mariko’s stimulating speech towards the kouhai members “Come at us with the intention to crush us”, even Mayuyu herself, who is the leading member of the next generation, did not expect that she would obtain 2nd place. And after she went on the stage, with a different character than the lovely one she usually has, she strongly declared “I think that from now on, the younger generation like us must open a new path” “If there will be a general election next year, I want to take the 1st place”.
“I instantly came up with that comment after hearing Shinoda-san’s words. I’d been thinking that I still have a long way to the 1st place, but I got 2nd place, I finally made the way to the top. In this one year, I’ve been running towards the goal of being in the 1st place in election, so this year I’ll definitely make good on my words!”
Then, after Maeda Atsuko’s graduation on August last year, Mayuyu has always been the group’s center as the leading role of AKB48’s 2nd chapter. The greatest crisis then came to her, the awarding ceremony of the Japan Record Award held at the end of last year. Continue with the year before, AKB48 shines for the 2nd time at the seat of the grand prize. And the one who stood as the center in place of Maeda Atsuko for the winning song of the year before “Flying Get” and the winning song of that time “Manatsu no Sounds Good!” was, Mayuyu.
“It was a fearful pressure until the grand prize was announced. In the stage wing I suddenly looked like I was almost crying with a chaos in my head to the level that it was incomprehensible. About 10 seconds before going to the stage, I couldn’t consult to anyone. It was the first time ever in my life that my body became such a state on its own. I was thinking ‘Not good, I will collapse if I move for even 1 millimeter!’ but somehow I managed to perform after the song had started. But when the grand prize was decided, I was definitely overflown with tears. In fact after the ceremony, Takamina said in front of everyone “Mayuyu has tried her best while being in a lot of pressures”, and then I cried even more.”
To serve in the center position on the big stage. Also, to connect her own performance with the group’s public estimation like that, she has strongly felt that, and she held such sense of responsibility all alone, it was such a day.
“As for the singles, I’ve been given the center position after “So long!”, but sometimes I still feel scared. When I see the bare view with no one around in front of my eyes, I can feel that ‘I’m in the center position now’. Maeda-san had continued standing in that position for many years and had been performing without trembling, so once again I feel that she was really amazing and I admire her. Even for the CD’s selling amount, I always have the pressure that I don’t know what to do if it’s my fault that the Million Sales record is interrupted.”
The heavy responsibility of the Center that even Mayuyu, who has been looking at Maeda Atsuko, didn’t know. Mayuyu is surely making her progress while living the everyday life that almost no one has experienced.
“Every day is interesting even though there are pressures. I know that there are people who deny me, but that doesn’t bother me much. Because I know that it’s definitely better that they care about me than they don’t say a thing. That’s why I especially enjoy everything.”
Team A is the forefront in all the 48 groups. We need to lead them.
She is still 19 years old. As for the age, she is not any different with Shimazaki Haruka and the others, but for Mayuyu who joined the group when she was 12, almost every member in team A now is her kouhai. Even her who shows a distinguished stability, acted a bit abnormal in front of the kouhai like she wants to say that “I can’t talk to the kouhai girls… Because I’m a timid person!”
Only, she knows well the reason of her being transferred to team A from team B, in which was said to be the “youngest team”, on the reshuffle announcement on August last year, held after Maeda Atsuko’s graduation.
“In team A, there are lots of other girls who are being said to be the hot issues for the next generation, so I think that I need to stand up in the center of those girls and create a new team A. Furthermore, team A was the firstly created group within AKB. We need to always run at the forefront and lead them.”
Not only the part she shows at the general election or on the media, but also as the person who will lead about 300 members joined the 48 group, Mayuyu continues to run. So, what is the new AKB48 that she imagines?
“An orthodox group who will not be ashamed of the name ‘National Idol’. Now, we are being introduced with the word ‘National’, but I think we are still far from an ideal one. I want them to know more other than the senbatsu members, and I want not only young people but also the elderly men and women to support us. For example, let me see… like a ‘Great man’, I want to become an existence that everyone will know about. Our aim is to become like, Oda Nobunaga!”
- Once again I admire Mayuyu XD